Whats the point in trust? So people can break it.
Whats the point in friendship? So people can abuse it.
Whats the point in relationships? So people can break your heart.
Whats the point in promises? So people can break them.
Whats the point in hoping? So you can be disappointed.
All these things seem to happen at sometime of every individuals life and it will probably always happen this way. Maybe i'm just having a bad day. But when I thought about these questions, these were the answers i came up with, if you reply to this email, then ask yourself if you can agree to all the above questions and answers. I am guessing that if you can't then you haven't lived for long enough. The saying is pretty much true, you know the one where they say, 'you can only rely on yourself'. I know I can do that and I personally can rely on my imediate family too. Maybe that makes me lucky, to have such a great family.
Just before the New Year, I said how I would evaluate some of my friendships and decide whether they are worth continuing or whether they are doomed to fail because of a lack of effort. Well, people will always let you down and I don't think anyone can stop that from happening, maybe disappointment is a part of life.
The other thing I notice is the people who try to be friends and end up lying to you constantly, telling you things just to try and inpress you. What is the fucking point? You get found out eventually and then you will be thought of as a twat. People lie and probably always will, I know that I have done my fair share, but just wake up and think about what you are saying.
There are only a few names I can think of that I can call friends and as for the others, they have a long way to go before being put on that list.
I sometimes think maybe I try too hard at friendships, but then I think thats wrong, I am the one putting in the effort, not them. So I am going to put effort in with the people who do the same and as for the rest of these people. Lets wait and see what happens, as I know for some of these people will only contact me when they are board and want someone to hang with. To put it another way, I am not a toy that people can have fun with when it suits them. Work hard at friendship and communication and do things with the people that matter. I am not suggesting living in your friends pockets as maybe that would be annoying, but contact once a week or at least once a fortnight I consider respectfull. Don't wait for me to contact you, because maybe one day, I will decide not to and forget who you are as lots of time will pass. Making plans to do things and then not following through, without no communication I consider disrespectfull.
Maybe the title of this blogg is a bit extreme as I DO care about the people who do the same. I don't care anymore about the people who treat me like a toy and think they have fun when there is nothing else to do.
Show some consideration and don't be an arse or you could end up with one less friend.
Am I still your friend? What about Nick?
matt
The answers to your questions I know them all, relating to my life only. It sugests I have lived once and now I can honestly say I don't care about so many things in life at this present time in my life.
I have been married to a paranoid schizophrenic, still technically married awaiting divorce and asset split etc. Had my daughter taken from me without my consent and called a bad father by my ex and her family.
I have been scammed of nearly $80,000 over the internet in a romance scam, resulting in me losing my house.
I have attempted suicide and now seeing a clinical psychologist.
Pushed away the loved ones around me because of my past, the depression relating to everything in my life.
My bloody god, I could write a book on my life. That in itself would make most people look at me and understand why I don't care anymore.
Who gives a shit anyway !!! My thoughts don't mean shit so why I even bother leaving a little something on here is beyond me. I guess I am bored, so I don't care anymore.