March 2007 Archives

Whats the point in trust? So people can break it.
Whats the point in friendship? So people can abuse it.
Whats the point in relationships? So people can break your heart.
Whats the point in promises? So people can break them.
Whats the point in hoping? So you can be disappointed.

All these things seem to happen at sometime of every individuals life and it will probably always happen this way. Maybe i'm just having a bad day. But when I thought about these questions, these were the answers i came up with, if you reply to this email, then ask yourself if you can agree to all the above questions and answers. I am guessing that if you can't then you haven't lived for long enough. The saying is pretty much true, you know the one where they say, 'you can only rely on yourself'. I know I can do that and I personally can rely on my imediate family too. Maybe that makes me lucky, to have such a great family.

Just before the New Year, I said how I would evaluate some of my friendships and decide whether they are worth continuing or whether they are doomed to fail because of a lack of effort. Well, people will always let you down and I don't think anyone can stop that from happening, maybe disappointment is a part of life.

The other thing I notice is the people who try to be friends and end up lying to you constantly, telling you things just to try and inpress you. What is the fucking point? You get found out eventually and then you will be thought of as a twat. People lie and probably always will, I know that I have done my fair share, but just wake up and think about what you are saying.

There are only a few names I can think of that I can call friends and as for the others, they have a long way to go before being put on that list.

I sometimes think maybe I try too hard at friendships, but then I think thats wrong, I am the one putting in the effort, not them. So I am going to put effort in with the people who do the same and as for the rest of these people. Lets wait and see what happens, as I know for some of these people will only contact me when they are board and want someone to hang with. To put it another way, I am not a toy that people can have fun with when it suits them. Work hard at friendship and communication and do things with the people that matter. I am not suggesting living in your friends pockets as maybe that would be annoying, but contact once a week or at least once a fortnight I consider respectfull. Don't wait for me to contact you, because maybe one day, I will decide not to and forget who you are as lots of time will pass. Making plans to do things and then not following through, without no communication I consider disrespectfull.

Maybe the title of this blogg is a bit extreme as I DO care about the people who do the same. I don't care anymore about the people who treat me like a toy and think they have fun when there is nothing else to do.

Show some consideration and don't be an arse or you could end up with one less friend.

Thats right, when reading my blogs it seems true!!! So hey there ppl, maybe I havent done a blog for a while but s**t happens. Since I did my last blog, it feels like alot has happened, but in fairness it really hasn't. Ok, so for the time being I have been suspended from broadcasting duties on the hospital radio station that I work for. Not my fault by the way. To cut a long story short, I have been pretty much called a liar, apparently making upreasons for not wanting to do my radio show. Let me set the record straight first, you see what I did there? The record straight......nevermind.

There were warnings on the television news and in the local paper about a bug going round the hospital and I was concerned of catching it, which the initial reaction by my superiors was that I was making up a story to get out of coming in and presenting. Well, in my defence I believe that if you work for a charity, you give up your time because you want to be there, so if I didn't want to be there, I would have resigned before now. Admittedly this wasn't the first incident when my commitment has come into question, but this is the incident I feel that is causing trouble.

Also looking into other activities that take my interest.

Not much else happening really, still in the same job, but am looking elsewhere for something different.

well, catch u again real soon as I am feeling a little sleepy!!!

TC all.