Okay, so sorry for not keeping my entries daily over the past few weeks. I know it has disappointed a couple of my avid readers. The truth is, I haven't had much to type about, that and the fact I m sometimes a bit lazy!!!
One of my friends from work has found a new lady friend and after being a bit of a player with the ladyz over the years I have known him, I think he might only play poker for a while. The truth is I am happy for him and maybe slightly jelious, as my friends seem to be in relationships at the moment, with the exception of me and one of the readers who avidly reads this!!!
Infact in all honesty, I have had very few relationships and only one I would say felt like the real thing. Juts a shame I was too young to know much about relationships. My first love was with a girl called Eve and they say you never forget your first love, well, its certainly true in my case. My best friend Andrew will confirm that there have been many occasions when I would talk about her. Eve was special and at the time I thiught the world of her, but surprisingly at the time I was shy when it came to the ladyz, like I said I was young - infact only 13. All I know is that Eve was the one I let get away, I often wounder what would have happened if we had survived young love. But like most young people, we didn't.
So here I am, having celebrated my 28th birthday, spending time reflecting on my journey through life so far and also considering the options my future holds. It doesn't help knowing that I have been in the same mundaine job for the last five years on November 13. A dead end job where opportunities only happen to those with the right look. I need to get my life sorted and find that focus I had for broadcasting. Even my radio shows need an injection of something and I am not sure what to do to improve things now. My broadcasting has been the one thing I have always enjoyed and have always put alot of effort into, but just lately my enthusiasm has been low, even though I still enjoy it. Its like my life is missing something as even the most enjoyable interests just seem almost like something I should do.
I think its because of my birthday and the anniversary of my length in the same job and the fact that most of my friends have relationships that is just making this time of year dull. Maybe a relationship with a special someone might make my life have some meanning again or maybe I just need to get through this strange time of year.
The only thing that I am sure of is that Chelsea are going to win their match against Barcelona tonight. Speaking of which I am off to watch it and hopefully regain some enthusiasm in life again.
If I have depressed you in any way, feel free to write a reply and tell me how you feel or what you think.
This is Chris saying bye and COME ON CHELSEA.
Chris,
Do a podcast. Make it good, with a real alternative to mainstream music, and people WILL listen. If you just want to work in radio and play the musicians from the major labels, you'll continue to be disappointed I'm afraid.
matt