To see if it's still easy to add links and stuff.
Ok, first thing is first, and appologese to anyone who may have read my last blog entry and thought it was about them. I found out that not too long ago, the persons I aimed my last blog at, didn't even know I had a blog. People that did read the blog were slightly confused woundering what they had actually done to upset me, trust me guys, it wasn't you. Thats that out the way, moving on...
Just logged into my messenger and found that I had an offline message waiting for me from my mate Nick, giving me a link to our good friend Matt, who is getting married later this year. So a big CONGRATULATIONS to him and his future wife, whom I have yet and look foreward to meeting. The wedding date has been announced as the 29 September according to the link I recieved and with Matts permission I will pssibly post a blog with the link in.
Life in my neck of the woods is much the same, I am still working in the same job, still living in Exeter and still looking for another job. Matt, I must appologise to you my friend as I said a short time ago I would foreword you a copy of my cv, it is on it's way!!! As for living in Exeter, I think I have managed to prove all the skeptics wrong, as I have recently celebrated my year anniversary of living away from home. There have been one or two occasions when I thought about quitting and moving back home, but thats just the hurdles I faced and managed to overcome. The hardest time was when I had three accidents in three months, with the final accident being the injury to my ankle. But well done me for not giving up.
Finally, just wanted to say well done to my mate Andrew, who in the last few weeks has moved out of home as well, got a good job, been to Birmingham to open a new store and now found someone more permanent to live. So CONGRATULATIONS Andrew.
Well, thats all folks, see ya laters!!!!
Whats the point in trust? So people can break it.
Whats the point in friendship? So people can abuse it.
Whats the point in relationships? So people can break your heart.
Whats the point in promises? So people can break them.
Whats the point in hoping? So you can be disappointed.
All these things seem to happen at sometime of every individuals life and it will probably always happen this way. Maybe i'm just having a bad day. But when I thought about these questions, these were the answers i came up with, if you reply to this email, then ask yourself if you can agree to all the above questions and answers. I am guessing that if you can't then you haven't lived for long enough. The saying is pretty much true, you know the one where they say, 'you can only rely on yourself'. I know I can do that and I personally can rely on my imediate family too. Maybe that makes me lucky, to have such a great family.
Just before the New Year, I said how I would evaluate some of my friendships and decide whether they are worth continuing or whether they are doomed to fail because of a lack of effort. Well, people will always let you down and I don't think anyone can stop that from happening, maybe disappointment is a part of life.
The other thing I notice is the people who try to be friends and end up lying to you constantly, telling you things just to try and inpress you. What is the fucking point? You get found out eventually and then you will be thought of as a twat. People lie and probably always will, I know that I have done my fair share, but just wake up and think about what you are saying.
There are only a few names I can think of that I can call friends and as for the others, they have a long way to go before being put on that list.
I sometimes think maybe I try too hard at friendships, but then I think thats wrong, I am the one putting in the effort, not them. So I am going to put effort in with the people who do the same and as for the rest of these people. Lets wait and see what happens, as I know for some of these people will only contact me when they are board and want someone to hang with. To put it another way, I am not a toy that people can have fun with when it suits them. Work hard at friendship and communication and do things with the people that matter. I am not suggesting living in your friends pockets as maybe that would be annoying, but contact once a week or at least once a fortnight I consider respectfull. Don't wait for me to contact you, because maybe one day, I will decide not to and forget who you are as lots of time will pass. Making plans to do things and then not following through, without no communication I consider disrespectfull.
Maybe the title of this blogg is a bit extreme as I DO care about the people who do the same. I don't care anymore about the people who treat me like a toy and think they have fun when there is nothing else to do.
Show some consideration and don't be an arse or you could end up with one less friend.
Thats right, when reading my blogs it seems true!!! So hey there ppl, maybe I havent done a blog for a while but s**t happens. Since I did my last blog, it feels like alot has happened, but in fairness it really hasn't. Ok, so for the time being I have been suspended from broadcasting duties on the hospital radio station that I work for. Not my fault by the way. To cut a long story short, I have been pretty much called a liar, apparently making upreasons for not wanting to do my radio show. Let me set the record straight first, you see what I did there? The record straight......nevermind.
There were warnings on the television news and in the local paper about a bug going round the hospital and I was concerned of catching it, which the initial reaction by my superiors was that I was making up a story to get out of coming in and presenting. Well, in my defence I believe that if you work for a charity, you give up your time because you want to be there, so if I didn't want to be there, I would have resigned before now. Admittedly this wasn't the first incident when my commitment has come into question, but this is the incident I feel that is causing trouble.
Also looking into other activities that take my interest.
Not much else happening really, still in the same job, but am looking elsewhere for something different.
well, catch u again real soon as I am feeling a little sleepy!!!
TC all.
So its been a while since I last made an entry. My best friend is down from North Devon staying at the moment. Congratulations to him as he is moving down here next month. Finally made the move from his home, well done!!! It is nice to catch up with him and I look foreward to eventually maybe sharing a house or flat with him sometime. I know this is the first time I have talked about Andrew but we have a friendship spanning 15 years. He is deffinately one of my closest friends and it will e great now that he lives in the same town, my phone bill will be alot cheaper for a start!!!!
We first met in secondary school and sometimes find ourselves reminissing over the old days of secondary school, thoes were the days, life was alot easier then although we didnt think so at the time!!! Andrew is now heading towards his 30th birthday, that right, I said 30, thats THIRTY Andrew.
So yes, he managed to do something other than talk about moving out of the deep dark depths of Ilfracombe.
Not much else really happened this last couple of weeks, just been building up to seeing Andrew.
Sorry to all the people who might have been hoping to see me on my messenger recently, I havent forgotten the small people, just been having too much fun, is that actually possible, to have too much fun?
So until next time, take care of yourselves and remember,
look after your friends and they shall do the same.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY.
Last night of 2006 and I wasnt drunk, makes a change some might say. But that doesn't mean I didn't have a good time, I spent it with my family and had a few friends over to see in the new year. House parties are alot cheaper than going out and also you don't waste time waiting in a line to be served.
Is this whole attitude of not going out clubbing on new years eve a sign, maybe a sign I am getting old? There used to be a time I wouldn't ever dream of staying in on new years eve, but now, it just doesn't seem as inportant as it used to. Maybe its because I have been there and done that, once too many, or maybe its just because I wasn't going to let friends let me down by not turning up like on previous new years eve, I don't know.
The point is, I had fun with a different crowd of people for new years eve and I didn't get drunk, so what. There will be plenty of other new years events to get drunk at and listen to the same old tunes, but I doubt very much I will have to wait until then for all of that!! Last night I had lots of lovely food and some lovely alcohool, beer and Champagne to be exact and a good time.
I just hope that this year turns out better than last year. I finally made the move out of the family home last year and got some independence, but three accidents in three months towards the end of last year. I feel I am deffinately due a change of fortune, maybe a jackpot lottery win, the girl of my dreams walking into my life, a job in radio presenting a breakfast show, maybe even some of my close friends and family actually acting like close friends and family - then again these are all just maybes and maybe I shouldn't hold my breath.
If you don't know me, then the one thing I take very seriously is friendship and I value all my close friends and sometimes feel that they don't value my friendship enough. Last year I went to an audition in London and stayed with someone I thought I was friends with. Throughout my stay I didn't think I had done anything wrong, anything that might upset this friend, as this friend showed no emotion or sign to suggest otherwise. But after I came back from London, I made numerous attempts to contact this friend and find out how they were and just generally catch up, but they never answered their phone or replied to any text messages. So eventually I gave up and deleted thheir contact details from my phone. I just wish I could delete any memory of them from my life as they have done to me. With time I am sure that they wil become a distant memory, it just hurts to think that someone can completely ignore you for no apparent reason.
So this year, and don't go calling it a new years resolution, I am going to make sure the people I call friends feel the same way, kind of like evaluating friendships and maybe seeing how loyal these friends of mine are. I just want to know that I am not wasting my time or theirs by calling them friends. Because in my opinion, friendships require effort.
Anyone reading this, don't think it's aimed at you if you're a friend of mine, this is just another blog entry and some thoughts I need to clear from my head. If your a friend reading this, then you are already showing an interest in how this friend is feeling and if your reading this, then great, it shows you care.
All I am saying is that over the last few years, friends and sometimes even family have tested me and now it's time to test them.
I just need to work out who are the important people in my life and am I important enough to be in theirs.
Only time will tell.
So this is it, just over 24-hours until we enter a new year and hopefully a better one as well. You know I actually have no idea about what to write about other than the fact I bought my first book to read in a very long time. I saw it in Tesco for half price and it is The Gospel According To Chris Moyles and already read the first few chapters, funny on the radio, funny in a book, there is no stopping this guy? I went into the library the other day to hire it out and found out it had a reserve list of about 6, so thought sod that and actually purchased a book which is a big thing for me. You see I haven't read that many books in the last few years, unless its been to do with a college course or something. I had a very long affair with television and now I have recently decided that it just sits there and demands my attention, whereas books u can read on the move, pause in a good place and come back to it in ur own time. But then the great thing about television is that you can be drip fed entertainment without your brain doing anything other than making sure you breathe. Television is such a slut.
So here I am, still at my folks tonight and just woundering what to type. I think they call this writers block or is it the fact that not much happened today. I caught up with a friend today and I feel I should mention them as she thinks my blogs are great apparently, so I dont want to dissappoint her with this one. Her name is Becky and I have only met her in person once and spent the rest of the time getting to know her online. Becky is the sort of person who you meet and feel like you have known all your life. She is a great listener and will have a laugh with everyone. She is deffinately someone special and someone I hope will meet more ad more and get to know her more as a mate. You can never have too many friends and Becky is someone who even after knowing for a short amount of time could tell her anything and trust her with it. Anyway, I know she is waiting to read this and I dont want to nurse her ego too much. This girl has a hieght completely opposite to the hieght of her ego, so wont make it any higher!!!
Like I say this is sadly my last entry.....................................of 2006 as tomorrrow I will be joining over half the world in drinking into 2007. We have friends and family coming over to my folks for a house party. Not sure if I am getting old now though as house parties at Christmas and New Year seem cheaper and easier than the hastle of going into town to a pub and/or club, or making I am just a scrooge!!! If you want to try a random drink tomorrow then I recommend Jaffa-Cakes. Its a drink and all you need is Tia-Maria and orange juice, if you get the meassurements right, it tastes like Jaffa-Cakes, yum. Or just another random drink is Malibu and milk, thats nice too.
Well I guess it's time to round up this entry as I am getting tired and I can't think of anything interesting for you folk to read. So,
H A P P Y N E W Y E A R
and catch you next year or in a couple of days or in 48-hours.....WOTEVER, you get the point and if you don't then go back to school.
Later peeps.
I read this and suddenly realised i was becoming a number on this statistic. Blogging should be fun and not a job you can't be arsed in doing, shouldn't it? I almost forgot to mention, Merry Christmas, thats if you celebrate Christmas, otherwise, simply Hello.
So if you remember me, then great, if not, then hey, check out my older blogs and then you will. So whats been happening in the world? I dont care and if you do, then your looking at the wrong page, this blogg is about me, myself and I, oh and anyone I feel is inportant enough to get a mention, ain't that right Nick and Matt?
So what have I been doing lately? Pretty much the usual, working, sleeping, eating, the stuff you do to survive and if I have any time left over that is for having fun. I am just your average Joe..........with only one exception, my name is Chris.
I was thinking about this today, with the new year fast approaching, should I make any new years resolutions? I thought of one, how about never making one. Now thats something I could probably manage. Or how about making a new years resolution that I must not stick to, I could probably do that too. The trouble is, people like myself make these new years resolutions and then for whatever reason, "the number one being I can't be arsed", just either dont bother in the first place or give up after five minutes. So why bother in the first place. I can now answer that question, it helps pass the time while you sit doing that boaring meaningless job that makes the money for you to live and attempt the new years resolution in the first dam place. So why dont I just say, let me change my job for something that might not be so bloddy meaningless and then be disappointed to find out it is worse than my original job. At this point you might want to read over that last paragraph just to understand it or like most people just ignore it as most people do to me anyway!!! Just incase you did re-read that last paragraph, so did I.
THE PERFECT NEW YEARS RESOLUTION OR IS IT?
How about I drink more? Ok, so new years resolutions are all about resolving things, where is the resolution? I resolve being sobber for any long periods of time. But then again next year I will have to make another new years resolution based on the opposite of what I just said as people will think I am a drunk and will want me too resolve my future drink addiction. All new years resolutions are pointless aren't they? If you have a new years resolution that isn't pointless and requires no or minimum effort to do, then reply to this post.
So anyway moving on, currently back at my parents for Christmas and new year, didn't think there was much point in going home for three days just to come back again. Also there is the fact that their fridge is full unlike mine at the moment!!! But on the upside, I get paid tomorrow, not really sure if that is aan upside at the moment, as not entirely sure what my wage slip will say.
On that note, I am tired, I will end it here and hope that maybe my readers will visit hoping to see another blog. Will do my best to pick this blog upto date, but hey, no new years resolutions or guarentees ok.
Okay, so sorry for not keeping my entries daily over the past few weeks. I know it has disappointed a couple of my avid readers. The truth is, I haven't had much to type about, that and the fact I m sometimes a bit lazy!!!
One of my friends from work has found a new lady friend and after being a bit of a player with the ladyz over the years I have known him, I think he might only play poker for a while. The truth is I am happy for him and maybe slightly jelious, as my friends seem to be in relationships at the moment, with the exception of me and one of the readers who avidly reads this!!!
Infact in all honesty, I have had very few relationships and only one I would say felt like the real thing. Juts a shame I was too young to know much about relationships. My first love was with a girl called Eve and they say you never forget your first love, well, its certainly true in my case. My best friend Andrew will confirm that there have been many occasions when I would talk about her. Eve was special and at the time I thiught the world of her, but surprisingly at the time I was shy when it came to the ladyz, like I said I was young - infact only 13. All I know is that Eve was the one I let get away, I often wounder what would have happened if we had survived young love. But like most young people, we didn't.
So here I am, having celebrated my 28th birthday, spending time reflecting on my journey through life so far and also considering the options my future holds. It doesn't help knowing that I have been in the same mundaine job for the last five years on November 13. A dead end job where opportunities only happen to those with the right look. I need to get my life sorted and find that focus I had for broadcasting. Even my radio shows need an injection of something and I am not sure what to do to improve things now. My broadcasting has been the one thing I have always enjoyed and have always put alot of effort into, but just lately my enthusiasm has been low, even though I still enjoy it. Its like my life is missing something as even the most enjoyable interests just seem almost like something I should do.
I think its because of my birthday and the anniversary of my length in the same job and the fact that most of my friends have relationships that is just making this time of year dull. Maybe a relationship with a special someone might make my life have some meanning again or maybe I just need to get through this strange time of year.
The only thing that I am sure of is that Chelsea are going to win their match against Barcelona tonight. Speaking of which I am off to watch it and hopefully regain some enthusiasm in life again.
If I have depressed you in any way, feel free to write a reply and tell me how you feel or what you think.
This is Chris saying bye and COME ON CHELSEA.
I guess its been a while since my last entry, so let me bring you upto speed on what's happened in my life. I came home last week, after staying with my parents while my wrist started to heel. It still doesn't feel 100% normal though. I went and broadcast my 2 radio shows last week, that has been pretty much it. Simply put, until Friday I am pretty short on funds.
My birthday is comming up soon, but if you read my profile, then you would already know this. Not sure what I shall do for it, originally, planned on going on holiday, but that backfired, so I am now considering going to London, somewhere I hope to live for a while one day. If not that, then maybe, hopefully, I will catch up with my long-time and closest friend Andrew. We went to school together and had have known each other ever since.
Talking of friends, my friend Matt Lee came down this weekend and I saw him after my radio show on Friday night, went to a bar and had a couple of drinks. I would liked to have stayed longer, but I had to be at work for 0730 the next morning.
Other than that, everything seems to be fairly quiet and dull at the moment.
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